Life's adventure~~

12 april 2009

Sunday is here. Morning time, i went to an assignment meeting with my sis. I ask her to come along to accompany me. Lolz. In the evening, I went to see the autoshow. Actually me n my sis went there the day before but that time we had to go back early since it was already raining. The cars was superb!!! It's just kind of a waste coz that type of cars can't be used on the roads. Everything about their car was invested with a lot of thought. Even the exhaust was custom made. A lot of them used the moon eyes design. But their stickers and the airbrush design on their car was the coolest!

We also went to the drift section. It feels like i'm watching the making of fast and furious. Hahaha. suddenly at that time i feel like playing need for speed. It was so much like in the game. Carbon hoods, slick rims, spoilers, turbo engines. I'll get one of those sport cars if i'm rich. lolz.

Although it was all nice, I don't think i'll waste that much money just to have custom made parts. A good looking car with nice paint job will be good enough. :P

ps : How much money must they have spent on those cars. But wasn't it kind of a waste. I mean u spent that much amount of money, but you won't be able to drive it besides for autoshow. Sien.

11 April

Its saturday!!! Well, my saturday is not at home this time. I went to a 'Bengkel Penulisan Bebas'. It was a great experience for me. I guess there is a future for writers. I've been dreaming of being a writer someday. But i'm still not sure whether i'll do an english book or a malay book. I'll try my luck!!!

The reason i wanted to be a writer is because I love language. And i used to be good in writing essays and stuff. But I think I need more practice. Its been like almost 3 years since I've write things that are non technical. (Doing assignments doesn't count here). I envy writers a lot. They can motivate others, share, and make their opinions known to the world. Their limitations is only they themselves. But i think i need to learn a lot more to even publish anything now. Believe me. I'll make my work public someday.

ps : It'll be so cool to have my name printed on the cover of the page. Somehow, I wanted to make a legacy of myself. This way, i'll still be able to help other people even after i died. Jia you!!!

Assalamua'laikum and good day!!!

wats up everyone? i'm doing good for now. considering the fact that i was so down last week. lolz.
i'm now living day by day holding on to my dreams that i planned after i finished my studies.

hahah. (isn't it too early, don u think?) i don't really care much, but i will go for my dreams.
i've listed the stuff that i'm interested in and the one that i think i can learn bit by bit.

1) art - i wish i could paint enough for me to open up a gallery or juz get my paintings for show. I'll probably continue learning art and see how far i can go with it. I dont really consider being a full time painter. ( the art supplies and stuff cost a lot, as my teacher in secondary said ). so it'll probably juz be something that i do for leisure.

2) music - probably i want to learn the piano. seems fun. juz for learning purpose. (*Salah tak belajar alat muzik utk orang Muslim? i'm juz wondering. rasa macam tak salah kalau nak belajar je)

3)learn language - maybe i'll go to few language class. 1 language at a time of course. if i can learn around 1 language in 1 year, i'll probably will have a lot of vocab. heheh. Priority for now is jawa. lolz. since i only can understand a bit of jawa for now, i'll try speak a bit later. although i dont really know who to speak it with. juz give it a go.

4) learn psychology - i'm not sure if i'll go to get degree or such. maybe i'll learn something simple like child psychology, juz things that i could apply. lolz. (macam dah sedia je nak ade family. hahaha. tak kire. nak blaja gak)

assalamua'laikum and good day

its now the third sem for my delta year.
so many subject, but i'm making full of it all.

i thought about something yest
ever see a fire?
its glows so brightly as long as there's something to burn it

Then see the place after the fire is gone.
There will still be some light
If we blow it, the fire will spark again

I want to be like that
Whenever i seem to lose hope, I want to have something to hold me through it.
when i'm doing something
I want to do it my best.

But sometimes life doesn't go that way

Thats life.
we try our best to make it perfect
but we forget that the things that makes us fall sometimes,
is actually what could hold us higher

God planned our life best.
Better than our plans

And like the fire, when there's nothing to hold on to,
we still have God, friends, family, and our loved ones
As long as we trust in ourselves
And try our best
We'll get ourselves on our feet no matter how hard things get



ps :
It is never the end until we die.
And it is never over until our last breath

We will never know how it feels like to be in someone else's shoes. What they go though. Their laughter, their cries, their worries. We may listen or read their writing, but still, u can never truly understand them.

Everyone is unique. We love different things, we hate different things, we think differently. everything about us is different. But that's what makes us who we are.

Humans tend to be judgmental. when we see something that is out of the norm, we are quick to judge. Like when we see someone homeless, most of us will automatically say in our head,
- 'eeee...how long haven't this guy take a shower.'

What's more sad is that most of us will straight away think of the negative stuff. One thing i learn is that everyone is who they are because of a reason. So never judge. Judgment should only be made by God. Our job is to try to understand and help.

" we live today becoz of God's grace. lets make it worth."

Assalamua'laikum.

We will not understand the feeling of being sick when we're healthy.
We will not understand the feeling of being scared for our lives when we're not facing it ourselves.
It is even hard to understand ourselves sometimes.

We sure are lucky people.
I think I am now.
Although my family may not be the perfect picture.
Although my life may be crumbling to pieces and thing don't go my way.
I am still lucky.

It is calm and peaceful around me.
I can go eat even when I don't have enough money sometimes.
I have the luxury of having a home.
I have the opportunity to further my studies.

And all this while, I my life has been easygoing.

When I think about my brothers and sisters who are still struggling to live on, I feel ashamed.
I didn't thank god everyday for the air I breath.
I didn't thank god everyday for the food I eat.
I didn't that god for the understanding parents that I have.

Now, i really wanted to change and contribute.



I once read, someone said, he tried to change the world, but failed. Tried to change his country, but failed. Then tried to change his community, but failed, Tried to change his family, and failed again. then on his deathbed, he realized, by changing himself first, he may change his family, then maybe his community, and his country, and maybe even the world. He can change all of it through good example.

Doing something small one by one may not be much to some people. But i really think that it is enough. Even in Islam , we have to ensure that today is always going to be better than yesterday. and tomorrow will be better than today.

Even if its not possible, we can always try.

We walk our own paths
But it will all lead to one destination.
We seldom appreciate things when they're there.
And we can never understand how others are in pain for not having what we now have.

Allah,
food,
shelter,
family,
peace,
tranquility,
love,
friends
and the list goes on and on...

We read in the papers
we heard in the songs
we see all the pictures
we know what happen there
but still
most of us can do nothings to help
we can't do anything to ease their pain
we can't react to their cry for help
why is it that we cant
why is it that we are so weak.

and although i think about this constantly
i still couldn't do much
i still could find the answer
all i can do
is pray to Allah
for those oppressed
May Allah bring peace to this world.